I'm tired of it - April 8, 2011

Contemplating the feelings I have
Forcing in the emotions that are sad
I try my hardest to keep it in
I hide the fact that I have sinned

The buzz of gossip floats in the air
If they talk about me I don't fear
I walk around with my head up high
I no longer feel the need to be shy

Walk around looking in all direction
Feeling the need to heed caution
Holding in the feeling of sham

Holding in the 75% pain
5% blame
And 20% feeling of me being lame

I remember the kisses and defiance
While still remembering the hand and hand alliance
I feel the chaos of my heart
Society is eating me like a shark

Destroy it all that's what I say
OMG! Stop the hating I say nay
I'm tired of you all having a comment for what I do
This is me why don't you worry about you

Just because I don't wear the right shoes
Just because I don't say the foul language you use
I swear I don't have no fear
These are the words I want them to hear

Hiding the feelings I have Is what I do
So those haters don't have nothing to use
God! I'm tired of holding it in
I just wanna let go and admit that I've sinned
Lord I give in

But why am I still caring what they say
I'm not even the one to blame
It's not my fault they wanna say this
And others are the ones that are hurt by this

Hiding in the emotions is what I do
I've talked back and you did too
I don't have to give in to you
I'm tired of living in my sin
I'm so sorry and redemption is what's within

-Haruhi Hiyashi